As you’ve probably guessed, I’m not going to be writing things in here in a chronological order. As I remember things, or feel able to write about them, I’ll do it.
I still don’t feel good about what happened at the waterfall. I thought I was doing the right thing, being so careful. But I screwed up. Big time. Ramiel ended up possessed by a ghost I’m positive wasn’t the one I called, and he almost raped an unconscious Lyla. All because of me.
I was so careful to make sure it was the woman’s ghost, but I forgot to try and verify the man’s ghost. I feel so stupid. And then my temper got the better of me… Thank god Hamilton was there and he was able to heal Ramiel. I don’t think I could ever have forgiven myself if… I don’t even want to think about what could have happened.
I still don’t think I can forgive myself for that failure.